Nobody Home

These are some thoughts that have been on my mind lately.
When you have divorced parents, no matter how old you are, it is hard to get used to. Even when years have gone by. You have to learn to look at your parents as real people who have been affected by life. You have to move on with your own life. You have to accept that you don't have the fairy-tale of going home to the place that was home when you were a child. I feel like home is gone. The house is sold, everything is gone or in boxes, and my parents have new lives. When remembering your childhood is uncomfortable for your parents, it can cause uncertainty.

I don't know how to fix this. One thing both my parents always said is that you can't change another person. The only thing I know to do is to work my hardest and trust God to keep my own marriage and family together so that in 20 years my kids are not feeling the way that I am right now.

Here are some of the words to a song by Amy Grant called "Nobody Home." I have heard it a million times, but last night I realized it pinpointed exactly how I felt about the first 20 years or so of my own life.

"Main street U.S.A
boarded up and dry
Knowin' what once was here just makes me wanna cry
Used to be the favorite place
Now what remains are memories even time cannot erase

Packed up, moved away,
runnin' from the past
Leaving behind the dusty dreams and broken glass
Used to be a busy town
Now, everybody passes through, but they don't stick around

Where we used to belong
There ain't nobody home
You can knock all you want
But, ain't nobody home

Knock all you want,
there ain't nobody home."

Happy Birthday, Ella!

Lola's best friend from preschool, Ella, turned 3 this weekend.


It was a "diego" themed party, hence the safari hats.
Happy Birthday Ella!

The Many Faces of Lola & Deacon

Aunt Gay's Beautiful Kitty

Olivia had a new home as of last Friday. Apparantly she is doing very well at Aunt Gay's house. She gets much more personal attention than she did here. Thank you Aunt Gay, for taking her in! It is nice for her to be with someone we know so that we can see her from time to time.

Recent Events

This is Lola wiggling into the bouncy castle at her friend Cadence's birthday party. Cadence turned 4 last week!
Here is Lola and Cadence bouncing!

Here they are in the pool.

Deacon got a new toy! He wants to stand ALL THE TIME, so this is perfect for him. It's an exersaucer. He can stand and spin, and there are toys all around him.

I am really tired but I will try to post more pictures in the next couple of days.

Deacon is 4 Months!

Deacon turned 4 months on the first! He has met his 4 month developmental milestones, 2 of which are rolling over and putting things in his mouth. He belives that anything within his reach should go in his mouth! He also tucked his knees up under him the other day and tried to scoot. He is also babbling, laughing, and he recognizes his mom, dad, and sister!
Sweet double-dimpled grin.

Watching UFC fighting on TV with dad.
Yesterday was his 4 month checkup. He is a little fussy today after his shots, but overall still happy and smiling. He weighed 18 lbs. 4 oz and is 26 3/4 inches long! (That's 95th percentile for height and weight.) Deacon is such a good baby, I could not have asked God for a better one.

The Rollercoaster

Lola thought of this all on her own.....she said, "Mom, it's a rollercoaster just like at Joyland!"